Sunday, May 27, 2007

At A Loss For My Way

Two years ago I was at a loss for my own way to go next in my life. After I graduated from Osaka University, I worked for a small company for a while. While working there, I found what I was doing wasn't what I'd wanted to do since I was the first college student, so I quit the job.

I'd wanted to write and speak as a career and then I started the job of writing at the company. But, as is usual, the job I was given there wasn't what I had heard at a job interview.

To speak precisely, I misunderstood it: It wasn't to write but to make a phone call to as many companies as I can. Certainly it is to speak in public that is my another thing I've wanted to, but it doesn't need my experience at the university and at the other jobs I've done before.

It's not to speak for any other person, but to speak for our own profit. I spoke to unknown people through the phone to find new customers for our service. For that purpose, I was asked to do anything.

However, the job experience is never worthless in my life, I guess. It's the way I had to go through. Actually it made me find it much clearer what I want to, and I've prepared for studying abroad since I quit it. I wanted to go to the US grad school to join the educational activities as my own career. For example, I want to teach and to write some research reports at university or at college. About more than one year have been passed since I started.

Now I am not at a loss for my way to go. I can see clearly the way in front of me. It is a waste of time to think over whether to go or not.

3 comments:

Di Di said...

It's great that you have the opportunity to pursue your goals in grad school. I think the best part about job experience is that it makes you appreciate being in school. Sometimes I'm jealous of people who get to stop working at 5:00 p.m. I'm jealous of people who make real adult salaries, and can afford nice things... but then I remember how much I hated working in the real world, and I'm glad that I'm in grad school.

Taro said...

Dear Di-Di,

Thank you for your nice comment!

I'm jealous of people who get to stop working at 5:00 p.m.

You said it. When working, I always went home at 11:00 p.m. As soon as I got home, I went to bed.

What I found then is that it is the most important for me (or many other people as well) to work for what we want to: We should work for our purpose.

If I liked the work, I would not have quit it. In fact I didn't come to like it. It wasn't very hard, but not interesting. I didn't want to think of it all day long. It only matters whether one likes the work or not, I think.

I want to believe that working should make myself. As Karl Marx, the great German economist in the 19th century, once said, "labor make us human." I'm not a socialist, (and in fact Marx either as has been thought)but I think Marx is right.

My next journey is for finding my own mission in my whole life. Oops, I said too much about myself. Thank you for keeping your eye on my blog.

Aini said...

once i worked for a company where i thought i would develop my carrier, but i was wrong. i was planning to make a step of quitting the job but then i was faced to a problem of having no-job, nothing after that. was really in a big confusion. however i decided to stop and tried to handle things while the situation was (economically) hard. then i found my job now, that i enjoy a lot and help me to develop much.
something should be sacrificed to get another good thing! a loss for a new better one!